Entries May 9 - 21, 2011

05.09.11

  "Art is specific to your needs, not only for the doing but for the doing for others. Let it be known that your creativity expands as you do with your existence. It will always be a part of you and will be enjoyed by countless others. There is little need to expel doubts of your creativity, technique or ideology. It is perfect the way it is, you do what you do well, and are unique a being as an artist. Bathe in it, let it cover, comfort and soothe you - it brings so much to the world you live in."

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05/10/11

  This morning, I come to realize my annual trip to Montana is nearly a month away. This will be, as always, a great trip and I look forward to it all. I cannot wait to be inspired by the locale, as it always gives me a more creative outlook about things.

  Still wanting to find my "niche", I plan to concentrate efforts within a increased manner on the detail of things, rather than the landscape of things. I can see many detail-oriented scenes in my "visual plan" and will mostly concentrate on  aspects of black and white images. This I have come to believe is and can become what I have amiss with my craft. I wish to develop some sort of series. 

  Just now I recall when I first became somewhat serious about photography a number of years ago, many of those early images are indeed of a detail orientation. I need to get back to this.

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05.11.11

  "I want you to know how special you are to us and many other people in your life. What you bring to your existence, thereby effecting others, is not to be dismissed. Your qualities are indeed worthy...others see this in you, you rarely do. Yet you begin to of late and find your voice in many avenues of thoughts and speech. This is pleasurable to all.

  As you move forward with your creativity, this too is the conversation spoken of. Begin to acknowledge the message each of your creations portray, both to you and others. Know it will come easily and do not second guess the doing. It is all as it should be. 

  The recent formulations of your inner dialog of creativity is most alluring, grand and of exceptional worth. Begin to see it and bathe in its many forms and manifestations. It will also be exceptional for you and your growth, and allow more to develop in and through you."

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05.12.11

  I'm just sitting here, attempting to write something, yet my thoughts wander, and I zone-out a bit on all that is on-going in my life. Need to actually ingest the coffee nearby...there, that's better. But I don't know if I have much to say today.

  "Inspiration is always for you, and this you know. It is a great energy for you and it can be most draining on a mental capacity - yet you also love it's power. Ask for assistance, and as always it will arrive. Don't let it slip by because of the notion of unavailability.

   Lasting impressions of your desires are available at a moments notice. As you ask for help...help is on its way to and through you. Don't be dismayed at the time frame. It's always like this, and this you know from past experiences. Take pleasure in the fact that it is all shaping up for you. Your job is to let it occur, not plaguing yourself with the task at hand. Over-doing your thoughts surrounding ANY issue or aspect which arrives into your existence is what defeats some of the creditability and experience. Second guessing always leaves you with less of the intended outcome. You are never "steered" wrongly. All that is occurring is for your greatest good. Allow it all to transcend you from what you are today to what it is you will become."

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05.13.11

  What happens to us to make us want to excel and succeed in aspects of our lives. So much is indeed taken for granted as we mull around with our lives. So much to be thankful for...yet many do not see it. I am thankful for all the aspects of my life; being able to read, write, make art and to speak with clarity to all I encounter. Thankful for the associations of life and the abilities and qualities I have. Thank you.

  "Best and now intense situations are forthcoming and gain in strength and allowance. Moving with it creates avenues to follow past the realms of darkness that becomes light with the doing. Leaving it to fate is no longer your resolve. Action is in order to placate towards the desires you so heartfelt-ly busy your mind with. You see yourself with less and less lack as "your" time expands. Nurture this as part of your life, never letting it fly away."

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05.14.11

  "What matters most is how you believe in yourself; what you believe about yourself, and what yourself can and will become. No longer are you that insecure being you once, (and at times still favor), were. More than is perceived by your being is at work...you see glimpses of this. Tenacity drives you. You find to succeed you must work harder, be better - the best you believe you can. But know, as you do at times, the "ease" of it all is also there and is given to you. How you use it is up to your freewill."

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05.21.11

   "Your art is your own. It is not necessary to be like others with it. If you "copy" anothers work, well it is not yours, is it. Know, as you do, you have the necessities of being to make great work...as you already do. You "get-going" as you do - don't let the "not-doing", (as you perceive it), to be the catalyst for the not doing. It will ALL be done as it is necessary to be so. Know this. Embrace this and do what you do as you do it."

Journal Entries May 1 - 7, 2011

"Your art is special...it drives people towards realms and thought processes left dormant if not for the viewing. Do continue it, as it is not merely for you. You indeed reach out to others through it, and will find much love and attraction because of it. This you already experience...and it will continue and multiply. Give no credence to worthiness factors which plague you. It is not for your to comply...just be who you are and all the details of your deepest desires will come to pass".

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"Your past "mistakes" are definitely lessons you should learn from, but don't let them paralyze you. You can't let yourself be intimidated by what might happen...you just have to trust yourself that you can do it. Now is not the time for mulling things through, reviewing all the options, or debating pros and cons."

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  I have been inspired of late with creativity, but have had little time to act upon this. Whether form busying myself with other "duties", or doing it as a diversion to the "making", things and images still abound in my head. Maybe a little, but I find the immersion in all this most appealing, and I know my confidence levels increase with each segment. Art comes in many forms, and although painting is a mystery to me...I can and do excel in other forms and mediums.

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  Creativity is certainly not lacking. It is, though, morphing into additional avenues. No longer, do I seem, to be perplexed with the notion I need to be traditional in my approach or outcome. Continue I will with the experimentation of mediums which do not come easy, only to build some sort of familiarization with them. No longer do I care about the particular outcome, nor the end product. I now know what I do well, and can relax a bit.

  My mind is still most engaged with the aspects of this skull project. I indeed see it in my mind, and desire to beginning the project, but find my time now full of other responsibilities, which I find not truly to be an excuse for the not doing. My process has me shooting in the studio with specific backdrop, yet possibly this may be holding me back. I don't know if the effect I wish to capture is viable for my equipment, especially the lighting. But all I can do is try. If the desired effect is unattainable in the studio, then perhaps and outdoor quality of lighting is in order. The issue is to begin, see how things progress, move on (if necessary) and allow the creativity to modify, mold, gel and manifest.